Friday, November 25, 2011

Guitar

This is my new Acoustic Electric Guitar!! I just got it today. Final price was $200, including insurance, a strap, and batteries for the tuner. :) I think I'm going to name it Jesse...

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I Cry Aloud To You (I Don't Know What I'd Do)

She cries the tears that no one sees
She prays to God for some release
From the life that wears her down

He just can’t take another step
He hopes God will pull him from the depth
Of the shame he’s fallen into

I cry aloud to You
Lord I lift my sins to You
I ask for mercy, Lord
For the things that I have done
I cry aloud to You
Lord, You are my refuge
If it weren’t for You
Lord I don’t know what I’d do

When my spirit grows faint within me
It is You who watch over my way
In the path of danger where I walk

When nobody even cares for me
When they have left me and chosen to flee
I look and find You

I cry aloud to You
Lord I lift my sins to You
I ask for mercy, Lord
For the things that I have done
I cry aloud to You
Lord, You are my refuge
If it weren’t for You
Lord I don’t know what I’d do

Lord, listen to my cry
For I am desperately in need
Rescue me
From my enemies
The fear and anger and sadness
Are quickly closing in
They make a prison around me
So set me free, Lord, set me free
That I might praise Your name!

I cry aloud to You
Lord I lift my sins to You
I ask for mercy, Lord
For the things that I have done
I cry aloud to You
Lord, You are my refuge
If it weren’t for You
Lord I don’t know what I’d do

based on Psalm 142

MLJ - 2011

Wall Around My Heart

It seems like every time
I let down my guard
My heart gets a little more
Broken
Now, I’ve done my best
To pull myself up
To put myself back
Together
But that was before
I met you
And oh, you seem to be
Different


If you love me
If you feel the way I do
Then you’ve gotta know
About the pain that I’ve been through
And if you want to make this work
You’ll have to break down
The wall around my heart

On the inside of my heart
It’s oh so very fragile
It’s being held together by glue
And duct tape
But on the outside
Somehow I’ve managed
To put up a large wall
Of stone
But now I’m peaking over
I see you on the other side
And I just gotta know if I
Can trust you

If you love me
If you feel the way I do
Then you’ve gotta know
About the pain that I’ve been through
And if you want to make this work
You have to break down
The wall around my heart

And oh I think that you
Could be the one that’s true
The one that helps me through
But oh, one thing you should know
It’s gonna take a little time
For my wall to come down…

But if you love me
If you feel the way I do
Then you already know
About the pain that I’ve been through
And if you want to make this work
Then you have to break down
You have to tear down
You have to wear… down…
The wall around my heart…

MLJ - 2011

Another Piece of Myself (Away)

She comes to me again
With tears swimming in her eyes
She tells me she’s fine
But I know how to read right through her lies
Right now I’ll give you some distance
Because you want to handle this on your own
I watch you struggle in silence
But I’ll never leave you alone

So I'll give you another piece of myself tonight
Just to make you all right
‘Cause you know you can come crying to me
I'll wipe your tears and set you free
I’ll watch you fly from all your pain
As you sore in the sky, a mile high
Taking another piece of myself
Away

You tell me you don’t want to talk about it
I say I’ve heard that before
And I wait until your heart
Just can’t take it anymore
You pour out your story
With tears streaming down your face
And when you finally fall asleep
I know I’m in the right place

So I'll give you another piece of myself tonight
Just to make you all right
‘Cause you know you can come crying to me
I'll wipe your tears and set you free
I’ll watch you fly from all your pain
As you sore in the sky, a mile high
Taking another piece of myself
Away

Oh, but every time I put you together
I watch myself fall apart a little more
And when it gets to be more than I can handle
When the waves are risin' over my head
I fall down on my knees
And I beg You God, oh please
I know you wouldn’t give me more than I can take
But God I was wondering if you could make
My load, a little easier, to bear…
And He said, child

I’ll give you another piece of myself tonight
Just to make you alright
Cause you know you can come cryin' to me
I’ll wipe your tears and set you free
I’ll watch you fly from all your pain
As you sore in the sky, a mile high
Taking another piece of myself
Away

MLJ - 2011

I Thank You For This (if for nothing else)

Sweet little sentiments

Happy-filled thoughts

Oh why couldn’t I see?

It was all for naught?

It was wonderful while it lasted

But now it’s in the past

You see, I should have know from the start

That dreams like this don’t last


Thank you for showing me happiness

When you made me smile every day

Even just the thought of you

Made my day brighter in every way

So if you gave me nothing else

I thank you for this

I thank you for showing me happiness


Sorrow overcame me

My thoughts were of you

It seems so obvious now

That your love was never true

But it’s true what they say

Pain like this just makes me stronger

Although I was hurt for a while

You don’t control me any longer!


Thank you for showing me sadness

When you ripped my heart in two

While I’ve managed to tape it back together

You took a piece with you

So if you gave me nothing else

I thank you for this

I thank you for showing me sadness



So now, I’m moving on

I can’t focus on this anymore

This past is dragging me down

So I’m simply closing the door

This chapter in my life changed me

I’d like to think for the best

I’ll remember our good times

And forgive you for the rest


Thank you for teaching me forgiveness

It was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do

I realized it was all for the best

And that I deserve better than you

So if you gave me nothing else

I thank you for this

I thank you for teaching me forgiveness

MLJ - 2011

Somehow

Verse 1

I never thought it would

Come to this

It seems we’ve tried so hard

For so long

Was it all for naught?

God, I thought you had a plan for us

Maybe you still do

But at times like this, I can be so blind

God, please light my path

Chorus

God we don’t know what to do

So we turn our hearts and  heads to You

We raise our hands

And beg for strength

We give ourselves to You

We know you’ll pull us through

Somehow

Verse 2

Oh God, I know that

I’m only human

It’s impossible for me to see

Your bigger picture

Despite how hard I try

But I know that this is all apart

Of Your great plan

Although we can’t see where You’re leading us

Isn’t that the point?

Chorus

God we don’t know what to do

So we turn our heads to You

We raise our hands

And beg for strength

We give ourselves to You

We know you’ll pull us through

Somehow

Bridge

Oh God we are so weak

We stumble, we fall

But when we turn away from You

That is our greatest mistake of all

So God I’m on my knees

And I’m begging you please

Let Your Will be done

Oh only Your Will
Chorus

God we don’t know what to do

So we turn our heads to You

We raise our hands

And beg for strength

We give ourselves to You

We know you’ll pull us through

Somehow

MLJ - 2011

Free (Stuck Behind Myself)

Take away my burdens
Take away these chains
Take all these things away from me
Oh, let me be free

Because I'm stuck
Behind myself
And oh I just, I need to get out
So give me the freedom to just be me
Oh my Lord, please set me free!

When my burdens are gone
When my chains are loose
When I no longer have those worries
Then I can be free

Because I'm stuck
Behind myself
And oh I just, I need to get out
So give me the freedom to just be me
Oh my Lord, please set me free!

I know that you
Are the only one
Who can give me the freedom
The freedom that I need!

Because I'm stuck
Behind myself
And oh I just, I need to get out
So give me the freedom to just be me
Oh my Lord, please set me free
So give me the freedom to just be me
Oh my Lord, please set me free!
Set me free
Just set me free!

MLJ - 2010